I have been grappling with this amongst several other things and I’m not sure I have the answers but felt maybe I’ll find some clarity by penning it.
Authenticity and this space.
I always find that when I’m going through lots if stuff that I go mute in this space and I guess it’s partly because this is a public space and sometimes I feel that no one really wants to hear someone’s sob story and moaning. Then there is the other side that it normally relates to work or something like that and I fear my real thoughts would end on my bosses table eek…..
So I end up mute because I fear the publicity and also because I feel that the alternative is not authentic. If I were to write all is well and dandy dandy doesn’t that make me fake?
Maybe the alternative is to write about something totally unrelated but when I’m all consumed ( thanks to my wonderful fox terrier a- type personality where I don’t let go and instead obsess about stuff ) if find it hard to focus on other stuff.
I wont lie I do fantasize of writing a secret blog where you can say whatever the hell you want but when you actually think of the reality I don’t think it would make one feel any better….So there it is. Its not that I don’t have anything to say, I’m just not sure I can say it…..
Any answers on how to say it authentically without saying too much?